Crazy Things I Try to Forget
My parents divorced when I was in about the second grade. The man that raised me was an alcoholic that never worked. I have married 2 alcoholics. I am divorced from the both of them. Who knows why I am still seeing the second one. He has been clean for 50 days an is wanting to get remarried.
I was molested by a man at my church when I was younger. I can remember him trying to kiss me one time. I kicked him and ran. He was fixing to be a deacon in our church. This took place during Sunday school. I always hated going to the restroom during Sunday school because he would be in the hallways. He always liked to hug you and would touch you in places that he shouldn't.
I still don't like Sunday School. I will go to the worship service. I was raped the night before my 16th birthday by a boy I was dating. He was several years older than me. I don't understand why my parents let me date someone older than me. I believe he was 21 or 22.
The first time my first husband beat me was because I let my brother watch my 6 month old daughter so I could go to Sonic. I had so many knots on my head...On November 14, 2001 he was drunk and wanting to drive. We got into a big fight about how I didn't want him to drive. He cussed and threatened me, really bad.
He drove.... beat the crap out of me, I jumped out of the car or was pushed I'm not sure. I broke C6 vertebrae in my neck.
Husband number 2 has been to prison 3 times for DWI's, I don't know about him either. I think he tells me what I want to hear. He is currently living in a Christian ministry for men with addictions and is currently on parole.
Dear Sharer,
Thanks for your contribution. It very much parallels my life, as it is in the same settings of church and a very hostile deacon there as well.
Yours is beautifully told and will help others.
You are making the first steps in recovery by sharing your experiences.
At first when you share you will just be telling the events that happen in your life, as they happened, much like at reporter telling a news story.
Over time, your perception will change and you will begin calling it for what it is, as you are already doing by calling it ‘crazy things I try to forget.’
That indicates to me that you are beginning to recognize your significance in all of this-which is good!
The more you share, the more you will reconnect with your feelings and needs, and start to feel you are a person instead of an object.
Over time you will call it something like ‘Things that happened to me before that I would never dream of letting happen to me now.’
Shayne and Lori
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