I Have been Sexually Abused

by Rose
(Edmonton)

I was only 12 when it all happened....
My friend who was 6 years older than me and he was telling me all the things he and his friends were doing to their girlfriends, and he wanted to try it with me but I told him:



"My daddy said I should never let boys touch in bad places."

All he said was it was OK. He was my friend so I didn't want him to get mad. I decided to let him do what he wanted. I went to his house and he lowered me to the floor and me began kissing me everywhere as he removed my clothing, and it felt really weird.


Then came the pain. It was so horrible I though I would die, that was how much it hurt. I tried to make him stop but he was too strong. Finally he let me go and I went home crying.


I couldn't tell anyone about because he threatened me. Before I knew it I was pregnant with his baby.

I ran away from home. When I had the baby I took it to a shelter and they helped me give it up for adoption. I went back home and refused to tell my parents what had happened.

I always felt guilty about giving it up for adoption and not letting it know who it's real mother was.

After that the man came back a few times and had his way with me for years. I eventually started to get into drugs and I almost died from an overdose. I cut my self and thought of suicide.


As I got older I became a prostitute. I had 4 abortions and finally the doctors said my body could not handle another one so I had my baby boy.

I named him Sainte because he was the one that saved me. After that I found Jesus. He forgave me for all the wrong things I've done. For a year and a half I've been on the road to recovery. thank you Sainte and God! I have also tried to locate my first child.




God Bless You Rose,

Isn't it wonderful that God knew you so well: he knew that you would do more for another, than you would do for yourself. That could very well be why he sent a child for you to care for, because it would give you the incentive to raise yourself out.

Sainte is a beautiful name, and well chosen.

Remember, he is not the source of your self-esteem, you are, but he is sure giving you a strong reason to find it, isn't he!

Rose, in self esteem, the area where you were weakest, God has given you wisdom. Soon I bet, for you there will be a position to help other girls as you were those years ago.

Congratulations on a year and a half of recovery, that is a stellar accomplishment!

We pray you can reconnect with your first child.
Please let us know how it goes.

God bless you and Sainte

Shayne and Lori

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