Thats exactly what happened to me,my dad was the same way. When I was 14 my life fell apart,my mom had left and he got into hard drugs he started forcing me to have sex with his dope man. I didn't want to,but like my dad said I was a whore and that was all I was good for,and besides when I refused he would beat me. He even went so far to putting a gun to my head. I was so scared of him, I didn't have friends he wouldn't allow me to. I couldn't even leave the house or there was hell to pay. I wish I could afford therapy but I can't. It hurts me still today,he has got clean from the drugs but not by choice. He was in a bad accident. When he gets mad at me today he still calls me a whore and I am not,other than what he made me do when I was growing up. I am so alone,will never have anyone that loves me. I wish I could move far away so I could start over, everyone here knows what I went through growing up and its embarrassing,and thats all they think of when they see me.
God knows how you feel, and thank you for sharing. Do not be embarrassed, for none of that was your fault. If you look for a way from where you are at, God will send it.
